My Boobs – From Size B to D and Back

WARNING: This post may be TMI (aka too much information) for most of the readers out there.  But it’s honest  and the truth and that’s what this is about.

Today I spent $100 on 2 new Victoria Secret Miraculous bras.  But, there were no miracles here today.  I was measured and am the perfect size of 34B.  This size seemed perfect 6 years ago after I had spent all of my life and most of my 20’s as an A cup before filling out (or putting on 5 permanent pounds) and poof a size B I became.  Today, when I was once again a B and it seemed so less than perfect.

My boobs and I have had a wonderful journey these past two years between being pregnant and nursing my son Ronan.  I was very fortunate that nursing came easy to Ronan and me and there was no shortage of the liquid gold. 

Don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t all rainbows and unicorns.  I literally spent the 1^st 6 weeks after Ronan’s birth either breastfeeding on demand or pumping.  I wanted to burn our couch from being on it almost 24 hours a day.  I pumped before each main feeding and one time each night.  I was a milking machine.  The plus side though, I was a size D.  Shocking even to me.

Slowly as Ronan has depended on me less for his nutrition and milk supply “the girls” have slowly started… dare I say shrinking??!!  That’s a harsh word, but so truthful.  This past week Ronan turned 16 months and we stopped nursing completely.  It was a sad night for Ronan and me.  There were some tears by both of us (and some pinches and hits from Ronan) but we survived that first night and every night since. 

Unfortunately, my boobs didn’t fare as easily throughout this 26 month process.  To me they have disappeared.  To Victoria Secret they are their most popular size.  You’d think this would give me comfort, but it definitely did not.

As with all women that have carried children, my body has changed.  My hips are now 2” wider and my feet are almost a ½ size larger.  My stomach isn’t nearly as tight as it once was.  And alas, “The girls” are once again smaller.  Maybe this is what makes their size not as impressive – the fact that there is a bit more of me these days in all the other places, except the brazier area (of course, right?!)

I have gone back and forth over the years with padded and non-padded bras.  I always preferred the natural look and alas the Miraculous bra is not that.  At the end of the day I bought the padded bras.  Not the Super Duper Crazy XXL Padded Victoria Secret bras but padded the same.  I’m still the same 34B, just a more confident version.

I am proud of my body.  It supported the growth of our first child, allowed me a Natural delivery and supported breastfeeding for 16 months.  I am strong and powerful.  And now with the help of a little padding, confident again.

I think if you have breastfed or known someone that has you will smile, laugh and maybe cry a little for the pre-baby “girls.”  I don’t regret my decisions one bit and I’ll gladly do it all over again for BK #2 (and no I’m not pregnant.)

Our bodies are amazing.  Whatever the cup size!